Thursday, September 29, 2005

i = sad

today i turned on my camera to take random jumping through the air pictures and it won't turn on. i tried to talk to it in order to convince it that turning on is essential to me taking pictures and yes i took out the batteries and put in fresh ones just to rule that out so i'm not a complete loser. i'm really upset that it won't turn on. now i have to take it to wolf's or something and see what they tell me. GOSH. not fun stuff.

yes so i'm completely wasting time before my organic test at 4. i'm skipping philosophy today b/c i figured it's better to waste time here around my organic book than in class where i would be sleeping right now. i'm just not motivated in philosophy to try very hard. it's all a bunch of circles and nothing is definite and it's all based on opinions. not for me. on the other hand, i'm really enjoying organic but i hear that it just gets impossible. whatever i'll deal.

listened to n'sync celebrity this morning on my way to the union to study with racquel. really got me excited for the day. and what a day it is!!! freakin 80 degrees outside instead of that hot weather that made me want to take a shower every instant that i walked outside. i actually got a chill when i stepped outside this morning. what a different sensation! all it took was ashleigh complaining about the heat for cool weather to finally come to austin! yay.

my back hurts like whoa. i need to find a chair massage stat. it keeps spasming between my shoulder blades. weird right?

i talked to my sister last night. i hope school isn't too difficult this year, OH WAIT - she's only in one real class. the rest are theatre/choir/dance classes that might be time consuming, but not intellectually challenging. this weekend is homecoming. yay. homecoming was always kinda stressful for me. senior year especially but whatever. i think chandelle is by far the best dance and the most fun but that's just my opinion. at my high school chandelle is the junior/senior girls ask guys dance that isn't school sponsored. the two years i went it was at the gypsy tea room in downtown dallas. pretty flippin sweet. i had a lot of fun. that was just a random anecdote.

i think i need to get back to my organic book. i know it misses me.

Monday, September 26, 2005

YES!!!

i get to play soccer on wednesday and i'm freakin' excited about it. you better be too.

Sunday, September 25, 2005

wow

it's already sunday?? damn...i feel like i've wasted time yet again. i had a whole lot of fun this weekend and very little learning which is normally a great thing but exams are right around the corner and i feel like i have sooooo much to study. :( oh well...now for a quick and dirty recap.

thursday: posse, beta/bunch pledges did silly things. i stayed out too late.

friday: took a stats test on very little sleep with very little preparation. printed pictures. chilled. mello club night. made new friends (hope i remember all of their names tomorrow and more importantly, hope they remember mine.) watched hurricane rita on the news from the time we got back until like 430.

saturday: slept in. lunch with ashleigh. shopping with ashleigh. disappointed in the mall at present. studied. shower. taco bell. new gourd party. very impressed with how the evening went. made more new friends. experienced something new and different.

sunday: slept. ate poptarts for lunch. am currently studying for PCAT and watching the cowboys play football. not going to acl tonight to see coldplay :( but oh well there will be another time.

i hope you liked the abridged version b/c i'm just to lazy right now to write out my thoughts at every one of the points made above. the pictures from new gourd are on the website under LHB 2005 at the end. they are courtesy of ashleigh b/c like the idiot i am, i forgot my camera. new "desperate housewives" and "grey's anatomy" tonight. i'm psyched.

Thursday, September 22, 2005

i like coldplay

When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse


And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down your face
when you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I

Tears stream down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tuesday, September 20, 2005

b/c you like to read what i have to say

i read this in a friend's xanga and decided that i needed to think upon the subject and come up with an answer for myself. just wanted to fill you in on the background. so here goes:

Q: Guys: Honestly...what's up with the commitment issue?

An answer given by a guy: i'm scared, but maybe that's just me. besides, no one is ever really sure of what they want, and being afraid of either losing something or missing something greater can lead people to irrational decisions, that though better for the individual, leave the victims is painful dissarray; but such is the cost of life, living, and love. just don't find yourself on the down side of it, i think thats the key. and maybe i have no idea what im saying and should be disregarded

i think i'm going to tackle this in two ways, first - commitment when it comes to friends and secondly - commitment when it comes to boyfriend/girlfriend relationships. i'm not really going to answer the question though. the question and the answer given just got me thinking about what other people think and how people in relationships have over come these issues. so pressing onward, commitment when it comes to friends. i think, especially in my life, that being committed and LOYAL to your friends is a constant struggle. i don't know if boys have problems with this, but girls are mean...to each other...even when they are friends. it is SO HARD to find amazing girl friends that will love you and make you feel needed and all that jazz. in the past, i have gotten shatted on so many times by my "friends." going away to college was a great thing for me b/c it allowed me to find new people to accept me and want to learn all about me. it was also really FREAKIN' scary b/c it's really hard to know who to trust when you are trying to figure everyone out. i mean, do you ever just know, i mean, just get the feeling that some girl doesn't like you and it drives you absolutely crazy b/c you don't know what the hell you did to piss her off??!!?? maybe i'm paranoid or maybe i'm just intimidated, i don't know but it took me until spring semester to know who my friends are (as far as girls go.) guys are so much easier to be friends with. i mean they are laid back and for the most part honest with you. sure they know exactly how to exploit anything that makes me look stupid (for instance my nickname snart- if you don't know the story too bad) but that's what makes you laugh so it's all in good fun. i just think that if guys can show commitment to their friends....it shouldn't be that much harder to show at least the same kind of commitment to a girlfriend. sure it's scary and you might get hurt. but friends can hurt you too and sometimes it's worse.

now to boyfriend/girlfriend commitment issues. i think right now it's really hard to know what i want. of course i see my future with a husband and family on down the road, but right now? do i want to meet mr. right during my second year in college and have a dating relationhip that lasts for the next five years until i graduate and can get married? i just don't know about that. of course it would be nice to date. to see what's out there. to feel wanted by a boy. to be looked at like you are the only person in the world to them. yeah. that would be nice. it would be great to know that at least one person wants to talk to you and look at you and be with you. i'm really torn between remaining single and confused all the time about who i have little crushes on or which guy showed me attention and little stuff like that - OR - to be in a relationship having to make time for the person when there is sooo much to do but also getting to be with that person. there are positives and negatives to both sides of course but i guess when i finally find my match, i won't have to think about all of this stuff. everything will fall into place (maybe with a little work) but still, i shouldn't have to convince myself to be with someone if i TRULY want to be with them. just saying. so just to recap. yes it's scary to think about being in a relationship with someone b/c you never know what could happen, but at the same time it's comfortable and wonderful to know that someone has seen something in you that makes them want to be with you and talk to you and respect you for the wonderful person that you are. now this "just don't find yourself on the downside of it" business - have you never let yourself fall for a girl? b/c how do you stay on the upside of the whole thing if you never let yourself be attracted to someone? there's no fun in that. sure nothing may come of it, but having a crush on someone is fun and entertaining. maybe that's just me but i thought i'd throw that out there.

so think about it. commitment. is it the commitment boys are afraid of or is it just an excuse to give the girl asking for the commitment?

wow. i feel kinda like carrie bradshaw right now even though i didn't talk about sex. i feel like someone should be narrating my life at present. :) that wouldn't be annoying at all...........

Sunday, September 18, 2005

i think i need a break

i think i need to take it easy this week. this is going to be my week of actually studying and getting things done that i need to get done b/c i'm worn out. this past weekend was a whole lot of fun, but damn. i need some sleep. so here's the quick and dirty recap:

good things:
-gourd initiation on thurs. and posse after. i mean when is posse not fun?
-trombone fantasy and alumni at posse on friday
-game day on saturday. we won. b/c we're awesome.
-gourd alumni party saturday night. good times. lessons were learned.
-sunday night with the girls. it's nice to hear other girls talk about their lives b/c then you don't feel as alone in the world. people need to talk to each other more so i don't feel like i'm an idiot all of the time. :)

bad things:
-it was really hot all weekend long.
-little sleep.
-it was HOT.
-i still have homework i need to do for tomorrow.
-complications with the opposite sex. and i say that not for myself but for others b/c some boys are just retarded and i'm disappointed in them at the present moment in time.

that's all.

Thursday, September 15, 2005

pffft

well this week has not been a good week for liz. i think i've taken every situation and have found the most negative points and have exploited them fully in my head. i hate how i hold such high expectations for everything and i'm normally disappointed. like school - statistics is a stupid class and my teacher is crazy (she ruined my week by being annoying.) band politics = suck ass. that's all i have to say about that. i'm a little anxious about the upcoming PCAT test i have to take. i need sleep which is making me cranky. i have too much on my mind. a little too much stress for liz.

on a positive note, today kevin took me for ice cream b/c of my bad day and that was awesome. i also listened to disney songs and sung at the top of my lungs. i don't care what the girls who live next door think of me. i like disney songs. they rock. i also watched almost famous and it still amazes me how many wonderful quotes are in that movie. and on that note...goodnight.

i dig music. I'M ON DRUGS.

Sunday, September 11, 2005

we won. take that ohio state.

happy birthday to me :)

today i'm 20 years old. wow. no longer a teenager. kinda weird but at the same time it probably doesn't really make that much difference. 19 and 20 are just filler years awaiting the big 21 so yeah, nothing to special. anyway..weekend recap anyone? ok here goes:

thursday: went to band and then proceeded to new person initiation. we had to wait a long time for those little darlings to show up but it was cool b/c laura and i got to talk. then i went to double dave's and split a pizza with ashleigh while doing a gourdhead thing. yay new gourdheads are on the way. :) i hope that they are all happy about getting a bid and will gladly accept it. then i went over to posse and chilled there for a lot later than i had anticipated. we watched a drunk guy get arrested b/c he was walking in the middle of the street. bad move buddy. bad move.

friday: went to class. saw some friends while walking inbetween classes. that always makes me smile for some reason just b/c it's nice to see a familiar face when the student body is soooo freakin huge here. i always like it when people make it a point to say hi to me. it makes me feel special. but ANYWAY, my mom came into town so i had lunch with her which was nice. z tejas es muy bueno. friday night i went to see "the exorcism of emily rose." not at all what i had expected. i don't think anyone knew exactly what the movie was about. they probably just thought that it was going to be a scary movie. not so. it was a trial movie with flash backs to the freaky stuff which wasn't that strange just b/c it was a pg-13. nothing too crazy but still, i don't like watching that kind of movie so i tried to find the humor in parts that were supposed to be scary. after the movie, laura, megan, tom, kevin and i went back to laura and megan's to just hang out. that was fun. i stayed too late yet again. i had to be up at 6 the next morning to go to ohio and i stayed at laura's until 4. yeah...so one hour of sleep later, saturday happened.

saturday: got up from my nap, and headed to the band hall. to ohio we went. man, there isn't anything particularly special about ohio. i'm glad i don't live there. but the football game was pretty awesome. it was a really good, tense game for the entire game it felt like. i don't think i ever relaxed. i watched every play too which hardly ever happens. i haven't intently watched a football game like that recently. the stadium is massive and seats over 105,000 people. they only gave texas 4000 tickets so needless to say, we were ridiculously outnumbered by people wearing red and grey. it was the loudest stadium ever. i was quite intimidated so i can only imagine what the football team felt. luckily they didn't let it get to them and did what they had to do. they might have caused a couple heart attacks along the way, but whatcha gonna do? so after the game, we boarded the buses and headed to the airport. i fell asleep b/c of the lack of yellow meal. :( the kfc people got lost. yeah right. more like they were bitter and wanted LHB to starve. so yes, i returned to my room in austin at about 630 this morning and proceeded to take a much needed shower before i crashed.

sunday: today is my birthday! i slept. i did homework. went to kaplan. returned to pretty pink daisy's from my beautiful roommate katelyn and now i'm about to do my homework and hope that someone else might bring me something pretty. :) j/k. thanks to everyone who messaged me to tell me happy birthday. i feel loved and very special. y'all rock. so now i'm going to dive into o'chem. peace out playas.

Thursday, September 08, 2005

yes

new found loves-

emery - "so i could see my breath"

iron & wine - "woman king"

mae - "the everglow"

rocket summer - "this is me"

nickel creek - "doubting thomas"

i know it's not a real post but i think you'll survive.

Tuesday, September 06, 2005

random

today in philosophy my prof went ROUND AND ROUND in circles about what exists and what are false beliefs and true opinions. hard things to put a definition behind. i thought that i was going to be completely lost in philosophy which is almost true. it's a bunch of questions that hardly ever have straight forward answers and to me, it's a difficult concept to grasp. evidently socrates believed that everyone who believes something should KNOW the evidence and reasons for the opinions you form. have you ever had trouble verbalizing your reasoning behind something? i know i have, therefore me and socrates would not have gotten along well and he probably would have thought me to be an idiot. :) at least i know that much right? hah. needless to say, i let my mind wander during philosophy and thought about my beliefs and what factual evidence there is behind the things i believe. belief in one God would be a true opinion that has no factual evidence behind it (some would argue at least.) weird stuff to concentrate on. makes you question everything. i don't like it.

so there ya have it, a liz random moment. i know you enjoyed it.

Monday, September 05, 2005

Tom
Ashleigh
Laura

what a weekend

wow...what a weekend..

thursday = in the halls. need i say more? always a crazy night...

friday = hung out with a new friend and learned that my taste in music is severly lacking depth. damnit. hopefully i'll get that squared away.

saturday = first football game. the longhorns kicked ass and the other team lost to tcu. way to go guys. way to go. after the game i hung out at posse with some folks and then we went over to homer's. good times.

sunday = slept in for the first time in a very long time. met my aunt and uncle and cousin for dinner at chuy's. yum. then i hung out with some friends and we ended up talking until like 430 in the morning. thank goodness UT didn't have school on labor day. :)

monday = i slept in...again. now, i'm wasting all the time in the world by updating my itunes and updating this thing. hopefully i will get together with some people tonight to watch the miami v. florida state game. good thing i don't have class until 2 on tuesday/thursday.

it's been a very enjoyable first week back in school and the start of football season. hopefully the good times will continue on throughout the semester but that is highly doubtful with my current courseload. :( poop.

hope you have a wonderful day!! hook 'em. enjoy the pics from "in the halls"

Friday, September 02, 2005

hrm..

there are many reasons why i love austin but here are just a few:

-when walking to band last week, i saw a guy riding his unicycle around....strange
-rick perry came to lhb rehearsal in his cycling outfit...scandalous
-posse east
-mack brown took the time to come to band and tell us how awesome we are :)
-milkshakes at players
-new friends :)
-great music everywhere you go