Monday, August 27, 2012
Tuesday, August 14, 2012
Wednesday, June 20, 2012
Monday, June 18, 2012
Recently, I went on vacation with the family. The whole side of my mom's family that is. There were 14 of us on a cruise, trapped with each other for 7 days.
It was magical and annoying all at the same time. Here are some photos. I'm the short blonde.
We saw lots of trees and ocean and animals. It was pretty awesome. We also got to get all dressed up and pretend that we are fancy because we were on a cruise ship.
#Alaska #Cruise #RedhookBrewery
Thursday, May 17, 2012
Currently, I'm at a hotel for work trying to decide whether to take a nap or continue re-watching "Roswell" on Netflix. I was always a Michael fan because Max is a pansy and often annoys the crap out of me. I didn't have cable growing up until I was seventeen, I think. Therefore, all shows from The WB (now CW) will always hold a soft spot in my heart. I often find myself on The CW's website, seeing what new shows they will be offering for Fall, Spring and Summer. I'm a sucker for the teen drama even though I am now twenty-six and should have more important things to do than watch love triangles form between two vampires and a doppelganger that resembles their first love some hundred years ago.
Maybe this is why I'm still single...
Friday, April 27, 2012
Friday, October 21, 2005
so here's the deal
omg you must at least look here and read one entry. there is something for everyone. today the nba's new dress code. a couple days before, an explanation to why men never really know what is going on in a woman's head. clever. very clever. the wonderful author of these entries - none other than my eleventh grade sunday school teacher darrell cook. oh the things i have learned from this man. you might learn something too.
inspired by darrell - i wish that i too had a camera phone to take pictures of the oddities that i see on a daily basis. i laugh at something every day when i'm walking to class. the strangest most random things happen and i laugh out loud. i'm sure the person next to me has no idea what's going on but i know when i see something worth letting out a giggle for. like today, i saw a girl wearing full on winter clothes. it's austin hun. it's freakin 90 degrees in october. you aren't going to be able to wear those sweaters until january and even then, you can only wear them for like 2 weeks before the temperature starts rising again. weird i know but it's the truth. it kinda saddens me b/c i LOVE fall/winter clothes. winter here only lasts like 3 weeks. of course that's not true. it lasts longer than that but it feels like 3 weeks.
anyway - i hope that your day has gone smoothly and that the weekend is even better. go horns. beat the hell outta tech. or should i say "tceh." you really shouldn't make spelling mistakes at football games when you are being watched by the competition. :) peace.
inspired by darrell - i wish that i too had a camera phone to take pictures of the oddities that i see on a daily basis. i laugh at something every day when i'm walking to class. the strangest most random things happen and i laugh out loud. i'm sure the person next to me has no idea what's going on but i know when i see something worth letting out a giggle for. like today, i saw a girl wearing full on winter clothes. it's austin hun. it's freakin 90 degrees in october. you aren't going to be able to wear those sweaters until january and even then, you can only wear them for like 2 weeks before the temperature starts rising again. weird i know but it's the truth. it kinda saddens me b/c i LOVE fall/winter clothes. winter here only lasts like 3 weeks. of course that's not true. it lasts longer than that but it feels like 3 weeks.
anyway - i hope that your day has gone smoothly and that the weekend is even better. go horns. beat the hell outta tech. or should i say "tceh." you really shouldn't make spelling mistakes at football games when you are being watched by the competition. :) peace.
Sunday, October 16, 2005
what a long weekend
can i just say that i will be soooo happy when tomorrow night comes to a close. three straight days in the new band uniforms is more than enough. i don't think i'll be able to handle it. i mean holy crap. new uniform exposure to the max. this weekend was a crazy one that had its high points and its crappy points.
thursday: high point, posse and i was really talkative and it was fun. low point, lhb rehearsal full of a show that we didn't do this weekend instead we worked on the show for the tech game. wtf.
friday: low point, class. high points, my camera got better. i had a date with shelby. megan cash's party and don came with me. it's always nice to play catch up with people.
saturday: high point, game day. low point, game day with lack of sleep. high point, party hoppin with ashleigh and chili's w/vitamin and laura.
sunday: low point, lhb mandatory "volunteer" event. high point, getting to play at an NFL game. go saints go.
i have so much statistics hw to do it isn't even funny. i absolutely loathe that class b/c the teacher treats us like children. really annoying. i have a new fascination with the oc soundtracks. they're mellow enough to just put them on and i don't have to think about what i'm listening too. i like that kind of music for studying purposes. i am to easily distracted when i know the words to every song that i'm listening too. anywho, colorado pictures have been posted and more ou pictures are on their way once i get my roll of film developed. :) hope you kids had a kickass weekend and will have an easier time catching up on your sleep than i will. peace.
thursday: high point, posse and i was really talkative and it was fun. low point, lhb rehearsal full of a show that we didn't do this weekend instead we worked on the show for the tech game. wtf.
friday: low point, class. high points, my camera got better. i had a date with shelby. megan cash's party and don came with me. it's always nice to play catch up with people.
saturday: high point, game day. low point, game day with lack of sleep. high point, party hoppin with ashleigh and chili's w/vitamin and laura.
sunday: low point, lhb mandatory "volunteer" event. high point, getting to play at an NFL game. go saints go.
i have so much statistics hw to do it isn't even funny. i absolutely loathe that class b/c the teacher treats us like children. really annoying. i have a new fascination with the oc soundtracks. they're mellow enough to just put them on and i don't have to think about what i'm listening too. i like that kind of music for studying purposes. i am to easily distracted when i know the words to every song that i'm listening too. anywho, colorado pictures have been posted and more ou pictures are on their way once i get my roll of film developed. :) hope you kids had a kickass weekend and will have an easier time catching up on your sleep than i will. peace.
Wednesday, October 12, 2005
so confused
can you let yourself care about those around you without letting yourself get disappointed when they don't meet your expectations??
Monday, October 10, 2005
good times
i had fun in dallas doing the "right thing." we beat the hell outta ou. i got to see my sister whom i love. i'm exhausted. sometime soon, there will be pictures of this glorious weekend but right now, all i can do is sleep. :) goodnight all.
Thursday, October 06, 2005
riiiiiight
there seems to be an ongoing "stick your tongue out" theme throughout my bass waste/tenor trash pictures. i don't know if everyone was being silly or if i didn't take my camera out until AFTER the alcohol had set in. you be the judge.
Tuesday, October 04, 2005
Sunday, October 02, 2005
word
what up gangstas? today is sunday october 2nd and i should have started pharmacy applications yesterday but have yet to do it. why am i being reluctant to start this business? maybe b/c i don't want to leave austin b/c i seriously doubt that my grades right now will get me into ut pharmacy school or maybe it's just to drive my mother crazy. i haven't really decided yet. this weekend has been a bizarre one for realz. don't get me wrong, it was fun. it was just strange. you know what's coming next;
thursday: posse. bunch tequila night. my friends got very drunk to the point of disgusting. poor fellas. hopefully it'll never happen again, for their sake. bryan, thomas, ashleigh and i were the first four gourds to arrive and the last to leave posse that means that we're more badass than everyone else in gourd. j/k. i think everyone in gourd is badass. :) smile. it's good for you.
friday: class seemed to go forever. i was quite tired all morning which is my own fault but when i'm tired like that..i seem to run behind in everything. i watched the oc after lunch and then decided i had to go to wolf's and see how much it would cost to get my camera fixed b/c it's broken. *tear. the girl told me $130 and i said "forget that shit" b/c i can pay for half of a $200 camera and my parents will pay the other so...hence a new camera will soon be in my possesion. i then proceeded to be late to soccer practice that was at five. i impressed myself with how well i can still touch the ball even though i haven't played soccer for like a year. i was expecting everything to be off and i would have to work extra hard, not the case. i'm pretty freakin awesome. yeah i know, i'm bragging but i'm allowed to b/c this is my blog and i can write whatever the heck i feel like. :) so i came home from soccer and then went to sonic with my pal vitamin. we chatted about the happenings of the night before (tequila night) and other happenings of the universe. i then came home and watched another of my taped shows from thursday night. i was late getting in the shower and so i was late getting to ashleigh's to walk to bass waste/tenor trash. bwtt was pretty wicked awesome i must say. i'm glad that i didn't have to walk to the bandhall drunk off my ass at 4 in the morning like some people but whatever. i had fun.
saturday: after sleeping in at ashleigh's, i came home and turned on the tv to watch us beat the hell outta mizzou. i watched maybe 10 minutes before falling asleep right where i was sitting. needless to say i didn't see most of the game. i woke up for the half time report and the beginning of the third quarter but completely missed the rest. from what i heard, the refs sucked and we got a lot of penalties and should have beaten mizzou by a lot more than we did so go us. saturday night i went to dinner with shelby, kevin, aziz (sp?) and well myself. we ate dinner cheap and then splurged for cheesecake at cheesecake factory, WHICH WAS AWESOME. mmm...nothing like rich oreo cheesecake before DOT initiation. i was sooo full and didn't feel like doing anything but whatever. i was a good sport. better than some...who shall remain unnamed but anyone who was there knows exactly of whom i'm speaking of. i then went to ashleigh's group party for like an hour. i was soooo exhausted.
sunday: woke up. ate chinese with vitamin. went to the texas v. a&m soccer game to see my cousin. we won. sorry linda. i then went and saw ashleigh's adorable dog, kiwi. i wish i could be with my dog right now. :( oh well, maggie will get by without me. i do love her though. so yeah... i went to kaplan tonight and learned a whole year's worth of chemistry in 3 hours. yay fun stuff. i really need to be studying right now so i'm going to ignore the fact that my favorite show in the world (grey's anatomy) is coming on and do my genetics problem sets. whooooop. j/k.
questions to leave with: is the a&m football just that bad that they had to go into overtime yet again against baylor?? why am i attracted to boys that are clearly wrong for me?? where have all the cowboys gone? j/k on that one. ok peace out playas.
thursday: posse. bunch tequila night. my friends got very drunk to the point of disgusting. poor fellas. hopefully it'll never happen again, for their sake. bryan, thomas, ashleigh and i were the first four gourds to arrive and the last to leave posse that means that we're more badass than everyone else in gourd. j/k. i think everyone in gourd is badass. :) smile. it's good for you.
friday: class seemed to go forever. i was quite tired all morning which is my own fault but when i'm tired like that..i seem to run behind in everything. i watched the oc after lunch and then decided i had to go to wolf's and see how much it would cost to get my camera fixed b/c it's broken. *tear. the girl told me $130 and i said "forget that shit" b/c i can pay for half of a $200 camera and my parents will pay the other so...hence a new camera will soon be in my possesion. i then proceeded to be late to soccer practice that was at five. i impressed myself with how well i can still touch the ball even though i haven't played soccer for like a year. i was expecting everything to be off and i would have to work extra hard, not the case. i'm pretty freakin awesome. yeah i know, i'm bragging but i'm allowed to b/c this is my blog and i can write whatever the heck i feel like. :) so i came home from soccer and then went to sonic with my pal vitamin. we chatted about the happenings of the night before (tequila night) and other happenings of the universe. i then came home and watched another of my taped shows from thursday night. i was late getting in the shower and so i was late getting to ashleigh's to walk to bass waste/tenor trash. bwtt was pretty wicked awesome i must say. i'm glad that i didn't have to walk to the bandhall drunk off my ass at 4 in the morning like some people but whatever. i had fun.
saturday: after sleeping in at ashleigh's, i came home and turned on the tv to watch us beat the hell outta mizzou. i watched maybe 10 minutes before falling asleep right where i was sitting. needless to say i didn't see most of the game. i woke up for the half time report and the beginning of the third quarter but completely missed the rest. from what i heard, the refs sucked and we got a lot of penalties and should have beaten mizzou by a lot more than we did so go us. saturday night i went to dinner with shelby, kevin, aziz (sp?) and well myself. we ate dinner cheap and then splurged for cheesecake at cheesecake factory, WHICH WAS AWESOME. mmm...nothing like rich oreo cheesecake before DOT initiation. i was sooo full and didn't feel like doing anything but whatever. i was a good sport. better than some...who shall remain unnamed but anyone who was there knows exactly of whom i'm speaking of. i then went to ashleigh's group party for like an hour. i was soooo exhausted.
sunday: woke up. ate chinese with vitamin. went to the texas v. a&m soccer game to see my cousin. we won. sorry linda. i then went and saw ashleigh's adorable dog, kiwi. i wish i could be with my dog right now. :( oh well, maggie will get by without me. i do love her though. so yeah... i went to kaplan tonight and learned a whole year's worth of chemistry in 3 hours. yay fun stuff. i really need to be studying right now so i'm going to ignore the fact that my favorite show in the world (grey's anatomy) is coming on and do my genetics problem sets. whooooop. j/k.
questions to leave with: is the a&m football just that bad that they had to go into overtime yet again against baylor?? why am i attracted to boys that are clearly wrong for me?? where have all the cowboys gone? j/k on that one. ok peace out playas.
Thursday, September 29, 2005
i = sad
today i turned on my camera to take random jumping through the air pictures and it won't turn on. i tried to talk to it in order to convince it that turning on is essential to me taking pictures and yes i took out the batteries and put in fresh ones just to rule that out so i'm not a complete loser. i'm really upset that it won't turn on. now i have to take it to wolf's or something and see what they tell me. GOSH. not fun stuff.
yes so i'm completely wasting time before my organic test at 4. i'm skipping philosophy today b/c i figured it's better to waste time here around my organic book than in class where i would be sleeping right now. i'm just not motivated in philosophy to try very hard. it's all a bunch of circles and nothing is definite and it's all based on opinions. not for me. on the other hand, i'm really enjoying organic but i hear that it just gets impossible. whatever i'll deal.
listened to n'sync celebrity this morning on my way to the union to study with racquel. really got me excited for the day. and what a day it is!!! freakin 80 degrees outside instead of that hot weather that made me want to take a shower every instant that i walked outside. i actually got a chill when i stepped outside this morning. what a different sensation! all it took was ashleigh complaining about the heat for cool weather to finally come to austin! yay.
my back hurts like whoa. i need to find a chair massage stat. it keeps spasming between my shoulder blades. weird right?
i talked to my sister last night. i hope school isn't too difficult this year, OH WAIT - she's only in one real class. the rest are theatre/choir/dance classes that might be time consuming, but not intellectually challenging. this weekend is homecoming. yay. homecoming was always kinda stressful for me. senior year especially but whatever. i think chandelle is by far the best dance and the most fun but that's just my opinion. at my high school chandelle is the junior/senior girls ask guys dance that isn't school sponsored. the two years i went it was at the gypsy tea room in downtown dallas. pretty flippin sweet. i had a lot of fun. that was just a random anecdote.
i think i need to get back to my organic book. i know it misses me.
yes so i'm completely wasting time before my organic test at 4. i'm skipping philosophy today b/c i figured it's better to waste time here around my organic book than in class where i would be sleeping right now. i'm just not motivated in philosophy to try very hard. it's all a bunch of circles and nothing is definite and it's all based on opinions. not for me. on the other hand, i'm really enjoying organic but i hear that it just gets impossible. whatever i'll deal.
listened to n'sync celebrity this morning on my way to the union to study with racquel. really got me excited for the day. and what a day it is!!! freakin 80 degrees outside instead of that hot weather that made me want to take a shower every instant that i walked outside. i actually got a chill when i stepped outside this morning. what a different sensation! all it took was ashleigh complaining about the heat for cool weather to finally come to austin! yay.
my back hurts like whoa. i need to find a chair massage stat. it keeps spasming between my shoulder blades. weird right?
i talked to my sister last night. i hope school isn't too difficult this year, OH WAIT - she's only in one real class. the rest are theatre/choir/dance classes that might be time consuming, but not intellectually challenging. this weekend is homecoming. yay. homecoming was always kinda stressful for me. senior year especially but whatever. i think chandelle is by far the best dance and the most fun but that's just my opinion. at my high school chandelle is the junior/senior girls ask guys dance that isn't school sponsored. the two years i went it was at the gypsy tea room in downtown dallas. pretty flippin sweet. i had a lot of fun. that was just a random anecdote.
i think i need to get back to my organic book. i know it misses me.
Monday, September 26, 2005
Sunday, September 25, 2005
wow
it's already sunday?? damn...i feel like i've wasted time yet again. i had a whole lot of fun this weekend and very little learning which is normally a great thing but exams are right around the corner and i feel like i have sooooo much to study. :( oh well...now for a quick and dirty recap.
thursday: posse, beta/bunch pledges did silly things. i stayed out too late.
friday: took a stats test on very little sleep with very little preparation. printed pictures. chilled. mello club night. made new friends (hope i remember all of their names tomorrow and more importantly, hope they remember mine.) watched hurricane rita on the news from the time we got back until like 430.
saturday: slept in. lunch with ashleigh. shopping with ashleigh. disappointed in the mall at present. studied. shower. taco bell. new gourd party. very impressed with how the evening went. made more new friends. experienced something new and different.
sunday: slept. ate poptarts for lunch. am currently studying for PCAT and watching the cowboys play football. not going to acl tonight to see coldplay :( but oh well there will be another time.
i hope you liked the abridged version b/c i'm just to lazy right now to write out my thoughts at every one of the points made above. the pictures from new gourd are on the website under LHB 2005 at the end. they are courtesy of ashleigh b/c like the idiot i am, i forgot my camera. new "desperate housewives" and "grey's anatomy" tonight. i'm psyched.
thursday: posse, beta/bunch pledges did silly things. i stayed out too late.
friday: took a stats test on very little sleep with very little preparation. printed pictures. chilled. mello club night. made new friends (hope i remember all of their names tomorrow and more importantly, hope they remember mine.) watched hurricane rita on the news from the time we got back until like 430.
saturday: slept in. lunch with ashleigh. shopping with ashleigh. disappointed in the mall at present. studied. shower. taco bell. new gourd party. very impressed with how the evening went. made more new friends. experienced something new and different.
sunday: slept. ate poptarts for lunch. am currently studying for PCAT and watching the cowboys play football. not going to acl tonight to see coldplay :( but oh well there will be another time.
i hope you liked the abridged version b/c i'm just to lazy right now to write out my thoughts at every one of the points made above. the pictures from new gourd are on the website under LHB 2005 at the end. they are courtesy of ashleigh b/c like the idiot i am, i forgot my camera. new "desperate housewives" and "grey's anatomy" tonight. i'm psyched.
Thursday, September 22, 2005
i like coldplay
When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse
And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
Tears stream down your face
when you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I
Tears stream down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse
And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
Tears stream down your face
when you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I
Tears stream down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
Tuesday, September 20, 2005
b/c you like to read what i have to say
i read this in a friend's xanga and decided that i needed to think upon the subject and come up with an answer for myself. just wanted to fill you in on the background. so here goes:
Q: Guys: Honestly...what's up with the commitment issue?
An answer given by a guy: i'm scared, but maybe that's just me. besides, no one is ever really sure of what they want, and being afraid of either losing something or missing something greater can lead people to irrational decisions, that though better for the individual, leave the victims is painful dissarray; but such is the cost of life, living, and love. just don't find yourself on the down side of it, i think thats the key. and maybe i have no idea what im saying and should be disregarded
i think i'm going to tackle this in two ways, first - commitment when it comes to friends and secondly - commitment when it comes to boyfriend/girlfriend relationships. i'm not really going to answer the question though. the question and the answer given just got me thinking about what other people think and how people in relationships have over come these issues. so pressing onward, commitment when it comes to friends. i think, especially in my life, that being committed and LOYAL to your friends is a constant struggle. i don't know if boys have problems with this, but girls are mean...to each other...even when they are friends. it is SO HARD to find amazing girl friends that will love you and make you feel needed and all that jazz. in the past, i have gotten shatted on so many times by my "friends." going away to college was a great thing for me b/c it allowed me to find new people to accept me and want to learn all about me. it was also really FREAKIN' scary b/c it's really hard to know who to trust when you are trying to figure everyone out. i mean, do you ever just know, i mean, just get the feeling that some girl doesn't like you and it drives you absolutely crazy b/c you don't know what the hell you did to piss her off??!!?? maybe i'm paranoid or maybe i'm just intimidated, i don't know but it took me until spring semester to know who my friends are (as far as girls go.) guys are so much easier to be friends with. i mean they are laid back and for the most part honest with you. sure they know exactly how to exploit anything that makes me look stupid (for instance my nickname snart- if you don't know the story too bad) but that's what makes you laugh so it's all in good fun. i just think that if guys can show commitment to their friends....it shouldn't be that much harder to show at least the same kind of commitment to a girlfriend. sure it's scary and you might get hurt. but friends can hurt you too and sometimes it's worse.
now to boyfriend/girlfriend commitment issues. i think right now it's really hard to know what i want. of course i see my future with a husband and family on down the road, but right now? do i want to meet mr. right during my second year in college and have a dating relationhip that lasts for the next five years until i graduate and can get married? i just don't know about that. of course it would be nice to date. to see what's out there. to feel wanted by a boy. to be looked at like you are the only person in the world to them. yeah. that would be nice. it would be great to know that at least one person wants to talk to you and look at you and be with you. i'm really torn between remaining single and confused all the time about who i have little crushes on or which guy showed me attention and little stuff like that - OR - to be in a relationship having to make time for the person when there is sooo much to do but also getting to be with that person. there are positives and negatives to both sides of course but i guess when i finally find my match, i won't have to think about all of this stuff. everything will fall into place (maybe with a little work) but still, i shouldn't have to convince myself to be with someone if i TRULY want to be with them. just saying. so just to recap. yes it's scary to think about being in a relationship with someone b/c you never know what could happen, but at the same time it's comfortable and wonderful to know that someone has seen something in you that makes them want to be with you and talk to you and respect you for the wonderful person that you are. now this "just don't find yourself on the downside of it" business - have you never let yourself fall for a girl? b/c how do you stay on the upside of the whole thing if you never let yourself be attracted to someone? there's no fun in that. sure nothing may come of it, but having a crush on someone is fun and entertaining. maybe that's just me but i thought i'd throw that out there.
so think about it. commitment. is it the commitment boys are afraid of or is it just an excuse to give the girl asking for the commitment?
wow. i feel kinda like carrie bradshaw right now even though i didn't talk about sex. i feel like someone should be narrating my life at present. :) that wouldn't be annoying at all...........
Q: Guys: Honestly...what's up with the commitment issue?
An answer given by a guy: i'm scared, but maybe that's just me. besides, no one is ever really sure of what they want, and being afraid of either losing something or missing something greater can lead people to irrational decisions, that though better for the individual, leave the victims is painful dissarray; but such is the cost of life, living, and love. just don't find yourself on the down side of it, i think thats the key. and maybe i have no idea what im saying and should be disregarded
i think i'm going to tackle this in two ways, first - commitment when it comes to friends and secondly - commitment when it comes to boyfriend/girlfriend relationships. i'm not really going to answer the question though. the question and the answer given just got me thinking about what other people think and how people in relationships have over come these issues. so pressing onward, commitment when it comes to friends. i think, especially in my life, that being committed and LOYAL to your friends is a constant struggle. i don't know if boys have problems with this, but girls are mean...to each other...even when they are friends. it is SO HARD to find amazing girl friends that will love you and make you feel needed and all that jazz. in the past, i have gotten shatted on so many times by my "friends." going away to college was a great thing for me b/c it allowed me to find new people to accept me and want to learn all about me. it was also really FREAKIN' scary b/c it's really hard to know who to trust when you are trying to figure everyone out. i mean, do you ever just know, i mean, just get the feeling that some girl doesn't like you and it drives you absolutely crazy b/c you don't know what the hell you did to piss her off??!!?? maybe i'm paranoid or maybe i'm just intimidated, i don't know but it took me until spring semester to know who my friends are (as far as girls go.) guys are so much easier to be friends with. i mean they are laid back and for the most part honest with you. sure they know exactly how to exploit anything that makes me look stupid (for instance my nickname snart- if you don't know the story too bad) but that's what makes you laugh so it's all in good fun. i just think that if guys can show commitment to their friends....it shouldn't be that much harder to show at least the same kind of commitment to a girlfriend. sure it's scary and you might get hurt. but friends can hurt you too and sometimes it's worse.
now to boyfriend/girlfriend commitment issues. i think right now it's really hard to know what i want. of course i see my future with a husband and family on down the road, but right now? do i want to meet mr. right during my second year in college and have a dating relationhip that lasts for the next five years until i graduate and can get married? i just don't know about that. of course it would be nice to date. to see what's out there. to feel wanted by a boy. to be looked at like you are the only person in the world to them. yeah. that would be nice. it would be great to know that at least one person wants to talk to you and look at you and be with you. i'm really torn between remaining single and confused all the time about who i have little crushes on or which guy showed me attention and little stuff like that - OR - to be in a relationship having to make time for the person when there is sooo much to do but also getting to be with that person. there are positives and negatives to both sides of course but i guess when i finally find my match, i won't have to think about all of this stuff. everything will fall into place (maybe with a little work) but still, i shouldn't have to convince myself to be with someone if i TRULY want to be with them. just saying. so just to recap. yes it's scary to think about being in a relationship with someone b/c you never know what could happen, but at the same time it's comfortable and wonderful to know that someone has seen something in you that makes them want to be with you and talk to you and respect you for the wonderful person that you are. now this "just don't find yourself on the downside of it" business - have you never let yourself fall for a girl? b/c how do you stay on the upside of the whole thing if you never let yourself be attracted to someone? there's no fun in that. sure nothing may come of it, but having a crush on someone is fun and entertaining. maybe that's just me but i thought i'd throw that out there.
so think about it. commitment. is it the commitment boys are afraid of or is it just an excuse to give the girl asking for the commitment?
wow. i feel kinda like carrie bradshaw right now even though i didn't talk about sex. i feel like someone should be narrating my life at present. :) that wouldn't be annoying at all...........
Sunday, September 18, 2005
i think i need a break
i think i need to take it easy this week. this is going to be my week of actually studying and getting things done that i need to get done b/c i'm worn out. this past weekend was a whole lot of fun, but damn. i need some sleep. so here's the quick and dirty recap:
good things:
-gourd initiation on thurs. and posse after. i mean when is posse not fun?
-trombone fantasy and alumni at posse on friday
-game day on saturday. we won. b/c we're awesome.
-gourd alumni party saturday night. good times. lessons were learned.
-sunday night with the girls. it's nice to hear other girls talk about their lives b/c then you don't feel as alone in the world. people need to talk to each other more so i don't feel like i'm an idiot all of the time. :)
bad things:
-it was really hot all weekend long.
-little sleep.
-it was HOT.
-i still have homework i need to do for tomorrow.
-complications with the opposite sex. and i say that not for myself but for others b/c some boys are just retarded and i'm disappointed in them at the present moment in time.
that's all.
good things:
-gourd initiation on thurs. and posse after. i mean when is posse not fun?
-trombone fantasy and alumni at posse on friday
-game day on saturday. we won. b/c we're awesome.
-gourd alumni party saturday night. good times. lessons were learned.
-sunday night with the girls. it's nice to hear other girls talk about their lives b/c then you don't feel as alone in the world. people need to talk to each other more so i don't feel like i'm an idiot all of the time. :)
bad things:
-it was really hot all weekend long.
-little sleep.
-it was HOT.
-i still have homework i need to do for tomorrow.
-complications with the opposite sex. and i say that not for myself but for others b/c some boys are just retarded and i'm disappointed in them at the present moment in time.
that's all.
Thursday, September 15, 2005
pffft
well this week has not been a good week for liz. i think i've taken every situation and have found the most negative points and have exploited them fully in my head. i hate how i hold such high expectations for everything and i'm normally disappointed. like school - statistics is a stupid class and my teacher is crazy (she ruined my week by being annoying.) band politics = suck ass. that's all i have to say about that. i'm a little anxious about the upcoming PCAT test i have to take. i need sleep which is making me cranky. i have too much on my mind. a little too much stress for liz.
on a positive note, today kevin took me for ice cream b/c of my bad day and that was awesome. i also listened to disney songs and sung at the top of my lungs. i don't care what the girls who live next door think of me. i like disney songs. they rock. i also watched almost famous and it still amazes me how many wonderful quotes are in that movie. and on that note...goodnight.
i dig music. I'M ON DRUGS.
on a positive note, today kevin took me for ice cream b/c of my bad day and that was awesome. i also listened to disney songs and sung at the top of my lungs. i don't care what the girls who live next door think of me. i like disney songs. they rock. i also watched almost famous and it still amazes me how many wonderful quotes are in that movie. and on that note...goodnight.
i dig music. I'M ON DRUGS.
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